I've spent a lot of time in the last couple of years looking for the beauty in the world, in part I suppose because it seems much of the world is just so ridiculously fucked up. You find a lot of peace when you realize that there is much good to counter the bad.
With that knowledge, I've come to realize that the single hardest thing in life, in the general sense, is to find the strength to overcome when bad things happen. When it's something that happens to you or affects you personally, it's much, much harder.
I feel like I'm having more than my share of bad things lately. I'm trying not to feel like a victim, or question my worth and place in things, but it's so difficult. After all, when you're the only common thread in a series of events that aren't good, it's natural to draw the conclusion that you've got a problem. Indeed, it's easier to see why some people find it so difficult to persist and march on.
I'm sure that this feeling will pass eventually, but man do I need something positive to happen, sooner than later. I guess I need to be the one to make that happen, because I don't feel like many people have my back in that regard.
I have felt like you're feeling many times, and I always try to think about the fact that while bad things happen to me, much worse things happen to many other people. Very often in life, I get to complaining about how bad I've got it, and then I see someone who has it much worse than me, and then I feel like a schmuck for complaining about the small things that have gone wrong in my life. Granted, I don't know what's going on in your life, so I can't speak about those things, but just remember that bad things happen, and you've got to always put your best foot forward and look for the good in your life, rather than dwelling on the bad.
that theme hit home for me a few years ago when a college friend of mine died. My friend Krista was left alone, a widow at 24, with a 14 month old baby, two days before Christmas. Seeing her march on and take care of herself and my beautiful nephew gives me strength when I am feeling at my lowest. It's the incredible resiliency of the human spirit and the power of having love in your life - whether it's love of self or from family or friends or whatever. I'll admit it's hard to connect to it at times, and that's when it's hard to brush the negativity aside and carry on.