I was having a lot of disturbing dreams prior to this week, due in part to anxiety and fear about not working. It's funny how your subconscious brings out the root of what dominates your mind like that. A few nights ago I had a good, even silly dream, the details for which I don't remember. But then early this morning I had a very complete good dream. Like a movie even, it had a beginning, middle and end to it.
It was some variation of a going to school dream. In the middle there were conflicts with other people, a hot tub and some driving of large vehicles. The ending though involved me having to write some big thesis, and I couldn't get it to print. So these hard ass professors or something call time and say I'm screwed. Some girl comes running in with a stack of paper and says this was printed a half-hour ago, and it's my paper, and they have to accept it.
It turns out to be the best one, and I get an award and there's much fanfare. I even get the girl, with pictures being taken of us. The girl was ambiguous, not anyone specific (which is odd), and I didn't get to have sex with her. I never get laid in my dreams, which is so strange.
I'm not sure what to make of the dream overall, except perhaps that in the face of adversity, I still have some level of confidence. That's hard for me, in part because I've been conditioned to think that confidence equals pride equals conceit, and I don't want to be that guy. That's something I need to get over because there are many things that I have expertise in, and should be free to demonstrate that.
I'm not surprised the dreams have been coming either, because I find myself being a little wiped out this weekend in terms of sleep. I didn't get enough of it during the week, and I've gotta adjust to having a regular work day again.
"Confidence equal pride equals conceit." Where did that nonsense come from? Confidence is a reflection of your ability; your faith in yourself and has nothing to do with pride and certainly not conceit. Confidence grows as you grow and is a major driver of success. Pride probably does little more than bring a smile to your face and conceit is by definition a falsehood often leading to tragic consequences.
I dream quite a bit and sometimes even confuse my dreams with reality .... and that is f'd up. But that's another story. I rarely figure out the meaning of my dreams, but I do believe, as you seem to, that they are driven by the subconscious commenting on your conscious mind.
On a lighter note, I suspect the reason you never get laid in your dreams is because you must have one hell of a sex life!!!