The last day or two, I've had this welling sense of negativity that's really bringing me down. This negative energy has manifested itself this evening by causing the igniter in my oven to stop working. Although maybe that's some force telling me not to pacify my fat ass with food.
There is no one thing that's really causing the bad vibes. It's a whole series of things. I'm unhappy with my personal life lately, I'm doing stuff at work that feels like busy work, and this fucking cold weather and lack of sun is really, really starting to get to me. The secondary effects are that I don't feel motivated to do much of anything, whether it's work on my projects or exercise (not to mention look at personal ads, which could help with the personal life). It's just this cascading funk that I can't get out of.
I need a vacation, but I'm not really the type to do that by myself. I've noticed that I don't really process negativity, as much as I try to just ignore it. So it festers and builds because I haven't disposed of it.
There are steps I can take to resolve the issues, I just don't have the energy and courage right now to take those steps. I've gotta work on that.
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