We finally got to the first episode of Eli Stone last night. Amazing show, if you didn't catch it in the first season. Really well written.
Anyway, they obviously had to explain away how Eli was going to continue having visions since the aneurysm they removed last season would theoretically put an end to that. It came down to a character telling Eli that the thing that was making him miserable, not having the visions, was the result of the fact that he viewed being normal as a failure.
Wow did that hit me hard. It didn't sink in until I went to bed last night, but boy did it stick with me. I think that it might be the very thing that makes me so discontent with my career.
Understand that it's not attention and praise that I'm looking for. I learned in my early radio days that attention and celebrity, on whatever level, is overrated. Meeting a lot of famous people in that time only reinforced that notion. But I don't want to be normal either. I don't want to be a neutral contributor to the world. I feel like I have more to give than take. The question mark remains that I have no idea how to manifest that.
There's a point in there somewhere for the J-Pizzie Lifestyle Manifesto, but it needs to marinate for awhile.