Control issues

posted by Jeff | Saturday, April 25, 2020, 3:00 PM | comments: 0

Things generally feel out of control for, well, most everyone right now. That hardly comes as a surprise. There are levels of that, certainly, given your relative security in the world, but everyone's mental health is going to be challenged to some degree.

We all look for ways to try to bring control and order where we don't have it. Diana typically does it by cleaning and reorganizing the pantry. I remember when I was dealing with layoffs and divorce, I tried to assert control by getting into body piercing and weight loss. These days it's making a radio show, long showers and Inkbox. Simon is trying to build things with Lego, but gets frustrated because he thinks of it in a largely abstract way instead of imitating the real world.

I've been through some particularly difficult stretches, unable to find work in 2001 and 2009, but this feels different. Living in a place that depends on the tourist economy, I worry about the massive number of people not working, as well as the inevitable effects on our state's tax revenue and services. It's probably going to last longer than anything we've encountered before.

As for me, I'm through all the stages of grief over not being able to do whatever I want, and at this point I'm at acceptance that things are the way they are, for however long it's going to take. No one wants this to go on, but the natural world is going to have its way with us regardless of what politicians think is the right thing to do next. It looks like they'll make it worse before it gets better. All I can do is try to take care of myself and my family, do the best I can at work and help where I can.


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