There is a generalization that people with autism find it difficult to deal with change. Speaking for myself, this can be true for certain things, and I see that in Simon as well. I feel like I've learned to adapt when it comes to professional change, and even where I live, though I'm happy to have that stable because moving is exhausting (we did it six times between 2009 and 2017). But change is one thing... chaos is another.
The universe is pretty chaotic, and small random things can in fact change big things. Everyone who has watched Jurassic Park knows this. Chaos is a lot harder to deal with, for me at least, because of the randomness of it. You can only predict and account for it so much. A little chaos is fine, because it challenges you and keeps your brain active. A lot of chaos is exhausting.
I feel like I'm enduring a lot of chaos lately. The cognitive cost is rough. I'm "brain tired" all of the time. I'm thinking about this right now, on a Friday, after having "a day," but being able to come up for air for a day or so. It's hard, because some chaos you can influence and reduce, some you can't. The parts that you can't seem to be the things that play an outsized role in your priorities.
Not looking for solutions or conclusions, just ranting.
No comments yet.