I had the radio failure dream... again

posted by Jeff | Wednesday, December 1, 2004, 10:16 AM | comments: 5
I know I've blogged about this before, but I had the radio failure dream again. This is the one where I'm doing a radio shift and I end up with dead air because I can't get the next song on fast enough or I try to talk and can't get what I'm supposed to say. I also get the call letters wrong (weird since I only worked at three different stations).

This time around, all of the music had been removed from the original CD cases and put in little brown envelopes, with hand-written titles on the envelopes in almost illegible handwriting. That's why I couldn't find the songs.

On one hand, I don't know what keeps triggering this dream. My definition of success has changed so much since the days I worked in radio, and it has nothing to do with money or fame. Back in those days, I was pretty insecure about being "successful" in the biz, compared to today where I don't feel that pressure as a programmer.

On the other hand, the new thing I remembered was that I was most worried about letting my boss down. I could imagine Matt, one of my program directors, sitting me down and telling me he didn't need me anymore, because I wasn't providing a quality show. I can't figure that one out, unless it's some metaphor for something else. I haven't had a boss since the radio days that I was worried about pleasing.

I wish I knew why I kept having this dream, and why it upsets me.


Comments

CPLady, December 1, 2004, 8:09 PM #

Are you worried about pleasing Steph?? Worried there are things she might want to spend money on, but doesn't? I know she's very supportive and your happiness is more important to her than extra income, but it might be something you are subconciously worried about.

Jeff, December 2, 2004, 2:30 AM #

I suppose that could be a little bit of it. There's also a little part of me that very badly wants to do radio again, just for fun. I'd love to do like a 90's themed show on college radio or something. That would be a blast.

J-Pizzie Lifestyle, August 24, 2005, 12:46 PM #


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