For as much as I think about the time involved being on the "back nine," my acceptance of the ephemeral nature of my being, and try to work on being present, I allow frustration to build and stress me out in a great many areas of my life. I've never really understood how to let it go.
I have a disconnect between the necessary perspective (the gift of your impending demise), and the necessary response. The hardest thing for me to do is let go of things that I can logically rationalize have no bearing on anything long term. Today's problems mostly don't have long-term concerns. There are exceptions, like health things, but I suspect most problems don't matter. Do you remember that time at that job that there was a thing and you went home frustrated and angry? Of course you don't. What about that time your kid did that thing and it was a whole thing? Same.
I wonder if it's because of my thought spirals. Is it hard to let go because my brain is always circling back to everything? The only escape I have from that is to dive into something that is probably self-serving and anti-social, which is probably not ideal when I think I need more people time.
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