I'm alone this Friday night. Diana is working which is fairly typical. But Simon is, for the first time, at the parks by himself, having driven himself. Yikes.
Things are strange. But it's not really bad strange, and in fact I've been kind of craving change after the last six months. Simon being mobile isn't something I necessary looked forward to, but at least in the last few days, he's been uncharacteristically responsible. He emptied the dishwasher without prompting, and helped clean up the garage a bit. We've sent him out to drop some things off to be recycled, and he picked up groceries.
I'm in my second week at a new job, which is equal parts exciting and terrifying. Diana is a new job too. My neighbor moved out, which means we can open those blinds in the side windows. I have a new car, which is symbolic of a lot of things, and would be a little midlife crisissy if it weren't a Hyundai. The kittens are growing up fast. It seems like a political correction is likely, too.
It's not all good. One of my college classmates, a guy everyone liked, died this week of a heart attack. We're at the age now where that sort of thing will only become more frequent. Our movie stars and musicians are passing as well. We get weird pains we didn't have before. We see doctors to manage conditions.
It's all about how you view the world, I suppose. Time is coming for all of us, and the only way to live for whatever time you have left is to accept that. Combined with gratitude toward the people who make your life amazing, and the good things you've seen, I believe that it's possible to live in a content way. You can decide to go to bed with a smile, and look forward to the day every morning. The decision is easy, but the follow through can be tough. I gotta work on that.
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