For the last four or five years, I've taken some amount of pride in the fact that I've made a lot of things. I want to take a break from that, sort of.
Maybe the way I really need to frame it is that I want to stop measuring the value of my non-work time by the output of making stuff. The truth is that I really like watching movies, and I've been doing a lot of that lately. I like it, and shouldn't feel bad about it because it's a passive activity. I like playing video games, and I've done a lot more of that this year. It's semi-passive, of course, which is to say that it still involves riding the couch. And of course, there are so many shows on the calendar. I like to be entertained.
Don't get me wrong, there are still certain things I will certainly pay a lot of attention to that are creative, if not necessarily result driven. I'm enjoying the lighting stuff a great deal. I'm thinking about volunteering to help out a volleyball coach if they'll have me.
The one thing I must do is edit that damn short film. I know why I haven't done it, it's because I think it's going to suck. Maybe it will, but I have to just be OK with that. It wears on me that it's sitting in pieces on my computer.
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