You ever get the feeling that you don't feel like yourself? Stephanie used to tell me she felt that way probably not long after we met, but I never really "got it" until probably a few years ago. I totally get it now.
It's like you're unhappy or something isn't quite right. It sucks because for the most part you think that everything is right, yet you feel weird. I was feeling like that today. I hate that feeling.
So I just fired up iTunes to play a song as a stupid joke for Steph, but then three songs later I totally feel normal again. I've also come to realize that I've not been listening to much of anything in the last week or so, and that's bad. Music is insanely important to my well-being, as it makes me generally more motivated and happy. I don't know why I just haven't been listening.
Then there's the other issue that there's nothing new I can fucking stand right now. A month into 2005 and my 2005 playlist in iTunes is still empty. WTF? As Steph says, we need something new, and not this pussy crybaby Coldplay bullshit either. I need something that makes you want to kick someone in the nuts or feel like speeding while you're driving. Back in the day, you could always rely on KMFDM or Lords of Acid for this, but they just kept putting out the same shit over and over. Bummer.
Ugh. I'm going to have to start exploring. With the new season of Alias starting, they have to tip me off to something new. Either that or we need something new from Supreme Beings of Leisure, or maybe even Garbage (in April!).
I guess while I'm at it, this is how the 2004 playlist ended up. It's really different compared to previous years. Keep in mind that these songs may not have been released in '04, but it's when I discovered them...
Ivy - Edge of The Ocean
Dido - White Flag
Toxic - Britney Spears
Pass That Dutch - Missy Elliott
Hey Mama - Black Eyed Peas
Hit That - Offspring
Figured You Out - Nickelback
Superfabulous - BT
Don't Tell Me - Avril Lavigne
Everything - Alanis Morissette
Ch-Check It Out - Beastie Boys
Up To The Roof - Blue Man Group (with Tracy Bonham)
Forbidden Colours - True Form (from Armin van Buuren A State of Trance 2004)
Honey - Venus Hum
I Have to Save The World - Venus Hum
Vertigo - U2