Nothing I have to say (creatively) is any good

posted by Jeff | Saturday, February 6, 2016, 10:50 PM | comments: 0

We were watching the special features for Pitch Perfect 2 tonight again. Along with the first film, they're a lot of fun, and I'm jealous of the people who get to make movies like that. The collaborative nature of it has to be incredibly satisfying. I know that when I was doing TV, it was the most fun when it was a crew of more than two (typically sports went that way).

Why haven't I done anything beyond some loosely (very loosely) cut quasi-documentary stuff? Mostly because I'm afraid that anything creative that I have to say is probably not very good. This is a huge blocker for me. It's hard for me to get over because I don't really know what the cause of it is. Almost everything else that I don't like and want to change about my personality I can figure out, and deal with it as I choose.

I don't have this issue professionally. I'm reasonably confident in my ability, and when my confidence is challenged, I'm generally able to do what it takes to learn or get it done and be successful. But when it comes to creative endeavors, I'm such a non-starter.

While I'm not one to make resolutions, I do want to resolve this. I want to make something, even if it's terrible. For starters, I'm going to do an homage to a certain Web series that I enjoy. It could be a little funny. I'm trying to come up with some ideas for a short as well, but I never manage to feel out anything beyond the first act.


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