I have a lot of things in my head that I'd like to do. I'd like to start yet another Web site, this time for volleyball, I want to expand my code library with certain useful things, like a blog extension for POP Forums, I still want to learn Flash, I want to someday code a game... lots of ideas.
The problem is that I can't do any of this shit at "work," because everything is so locked down that I can't get to my Web server to access stuff. What's worse, the fact that I have nothing to do sucks the life out of me so I'm not interested when I get home.
I realized the other day that there are a lot of things I'd really like to do. I'd like to write a screenplay and direct the "film." I'd like to write a computer book too, though that at least is moving forward to some degree with one publisher. If they go for it, you can bet I'll be a happy guy.
I really want to enjoy the "now' too, but I feel like I live for weekends then don't really do anything but chill out and rest. That's disturbing.
If only I didn't have to generate enough money to maintain the J-Pizzie lifestyle! :)
The fact that the firewall didn't block outbound IMs or web surfing sure helped with the sanity, though. Heck, IM was ENCOURAGED -- we ran our own internal IRC server for company communications, and all of us were on at least one of AIM or ICQ as well.
As for weekends, it's mid winter. The weather is crappy, we are pretty much cooped up, and you aren't the only one who has no enthusiasm for things you want to or feel you should do. I see nothing wrong with zoning on weekends in the winter. A fire in the fireplace, a good book, and a Corona do wonders for me.