Sticking with that theme of retrospective and change in the fall, I've been feeling a bit that I might be missing out on something that's right in front of me. Specifically, I need to remind myself that Diana and Simon are right there, and they're an important part of my life. Probably the most important. It's not that I neglect them, but certain realities make me think that I need to reprioritize a bit.
Simon is 5, and he's in kindergarten. An obvious observation, perhaps, but I can't help but think about how fast he seems to have gotten to this point. After spending time with Catherine and her charming little Will last weekend, just under a year old, it's not hard to think back about how little Simon was a short time ago. OK, so he was never really "little," but he was certainly a baby. Now he's this little person with opinions and things to laugh about. It seems sudden, even if it's not. It doesn't help that Facebook reminds me every day how little he was a short time ago.
Diana is heads down into some fantastic quilting work and, more and more, well networked in social media. That's pretty cool to see. She's also back in the workforce, part-time, and very engaged into the question about what comes next. And with ever slight improvements in Simon's independence, it's getting a little easier in certain ways to engage more in couplehood, which is tough when you've got a child with some amount of special needs.
Meanwhile, I think I've been a little too in my head to really engage with them the way that I think I should. Some of it is work, I'm sure, as I just ended a project that really took a lot out of me mentally (though as far as I'm concerned, I nailed it). I feel like I'm coming out of a little bit of a fog in that sense. My interests in everything else are starting to light back up, and I want to make it more of a point to hang out with family and friends.
It's funny that I've understood the importance of balancing your life for the better part of two decades, and yet it's still hard. I suppose self-awareness still goes a long way.