I'm not sure if people are just turning into assholes in record numbers or what, but I've caught myself three times in the last week or so getting all pissed off, no, down right angry, for people driving like morons.
When I was commuting downtown to work, you never knew if you'd get there on time, and the only way to really deal with it was just not worry about it. Getting excited or worked up about it had zero effect on you getting to or from work any faster. So I learned pretty quickly to just go with the flow. I think I did a good job finding my zen place back then.
Unfortunately, my issues are not confined to just driving lately. I find myself getting snappy with people, over-reacting to whatever dumb thing one of the cats did or just wigging out over something stupid like dribbling soda down my shirt. (Or the USPS fucking with me over a penny.) This is so not like me.
I'm not an angry person. I don't get angry that frequently. Things outside of my control tend to barely make my radar. But lately everything tweaks me. The worst part of it is that it tends to cause physical discomfort for me too, in the form of headaches, digestive drama and muscle tightness.
I think I'm just holding on too tight. There are a lot of things going on in my life and I think subconsciously I'm letting it overwhelm me. I'm prescribing a strict regimen of more hot tub time.
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