I got on the scale this morning, as I do every Monday morning, and became a little frightened at what I saw. I'm slowly undoing all that I accomplished last year, and I feel shitty about it.
I've been eating like a total asshole the last few months, because for some reason I find comfort in food. That doesn't even make sense because it's not like I'm particularly unhappy or depressed about anything. I'm just annoyed with the situation.
So today I'm trying to do things right, and all I can think about is hitting that vending machine and getting candy out of it. If I can just hold out for two hours, I can have dinner and probably feel a whole lot better.
The funny thing is that I catch myself over-eating and feeling physically not well for doing so. After my weight loss last year, my body adjusted and it doesn't like large portions of food. I get all crampy and bloated when I eat too much. It would be a damn shame if I gained back the weight I lost, because God knows I feel better being lighter.