I've had a few days this week where I found it difficult to stay plugged in and do specific tasks. It made me recall that there was a time that I viewed this as a personality flaw, but now understand it to be ADHD. The weird thing is that once I have this realization, I'm more determined to stay focused, and sometimes it works. I haven't not completed what I had to do, but it can be exhausting to get to the finish line.
That got me to thinking about hyperfocus, the potentially more positive part of ADHD. It occurs to me that I just haven't had much of it in the last year. That sucks. I realized it when it made an appearance late yesterday, as I enthusiastically threw together a technical diagram for some colleagues. I weirdly enjoy that sort of thing, and before I knew it, 40 minutes had passed.
You can't bottle or choose hyperfocus, despite what people who write self-help books tell you. But it is jarring to think that I haven't had much of it this year, other than when playing Against the Storm (yeah, still playing it!). A lot of the things that I want to complete or enjoy or whatever would benefit from the focus, but it just hasn't come to me. I wonder why.
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