I know this shouldn't annoy me... but it does.
Let me get something straight for people reading this. Because you read my blog doesn't mean you know Jeff Putz. This is not an unfiltered peek into my life. I write about whatever strikes me at the time, or whatever is on my mind. Some days it's deep observations on the meaning of life, some days it's about some funny shit on YouTube.
But what you're getting is about 1/3 of the experience. No responsible person, aside from someone with a serious case of uber-narcissism or complete lack of self-love, would post everything that's on their mind. You'll never hear about my sex life or the most intimate details of my relationships. You'll never hear about the things that I fear most. You'll never hear me talk about the hardest struggles in my life.
You don't know about the other 85,000 seconds in a day between blog posts. You don't know what's important to me or how I'm contributing to the world, my friends or my own life.
So if you spend any time at all thinking about who I am or drawing some conclusions or judgments about me, stop wasting your time. This is not high school. You don't know Jeff.
I've tried to be objective and think, "Do I draw up random shit about other people I only know in some online way?" Hell no I don't. I can barely figure myself out some days, why would I waste time thinking about others? People I encounter on a frequent basis in real life, people I sincerely care about, that's obviously a different story. I'm fiercely loyal and caring to those people, and I look out for them almost to a fault, and at my own expense. But for everyone else? Not a chance. I don't have the bandwidth for it.
I don't care if you think it's materialistic to talk about my business or my hot tub. I don't care if you think it's vain to talk about my weight loss. I don't care if you think my gadget obsession is pointless. The truth is, I talk about the same shit I did a year or two ago, only without the volleyball part since I'm not doing it this year. I write about what I feel like writing about. These are the parts of my life I'm willing to share. The rest you don't know.
You don't know Jeff.